- (via thecolorgrapher)
I just want to leave. I have no future here
- satan (via tocherette)
arent parents supposed to not make you feel like shit
I honestly miss my eating disorder. I miss how the sight of food made me sick. I miss how I could skip meal after meal after meal without feeling the urge to eat. I miss how alert my mind was when it came to counting calories and every thought I had was about losing weight. I miss my daily workout plans. I miss how throwing up became an instinct whenever I consumed anything. I miss the lies I would tell that people believed so easily, like “I’ve already ate” “I’m not hungry” or “I don’t feel good”. I miss when people would say how skinny and good I look. I miss when I would get called names like “anorexic twig” or people thought I didn’t eat because of how I looked. I miss when my parents would worry about how I never ate and about how I was getting thin. I miss it all, but I lost all that self control, I fucked everything up. I want it back, all of it, and this time I won’t stop until I’m dead.
if we’re friends!! don’t apologize about talking about ur problems or anything ok if we’re friends i love when u talk about anything i love when u tell me things i love to know about ur life okay i love YOU